Letting go

I am feeling really sentimental and mushy tonight. Maybe it's the holiday season. Maybe it's still those evil post baby hormones or maybe I actually do have a heart!

Very few people in my life have come to see Isla since she was born 3 months ago. That makes me a bit sad. The people who have made time to come see my sweet little girl, I really do appreciate. Every new mom wants the people she cares about to meet her new baby! I promise we don't have germs... well actually this week we do, all of the kids are sick. Under normal circumstances though... we don't!

Lately I had been dwelling on some people and situations in my life. Negative people and situations. Things I should not give any thought to or let into my life. It's pretty hard to just ignore when it is family and people you thought were great friends. Best friends, even. Sometimes growing up really sucks. Realizing who people truly are can be a real let down. 

I realized (something I already KNOW but just really realized) that I need to only focus on the positives in my life. Positive people, positive relationships, all of the things that I am so blessed to have in my life. Those other things are just draining and not worth my energy. I should pour my energy into those who I love and who love me back. I AM very blessed in life. I have some very wonderful people in my life. I have some amazing friends. I have wonderful children and a great husband, too.

So I think my new years resolution this year will be to LET GO. Let go of the negative situations. Let go of the negative people and energy. Let go of expecting perfection.  Let go and Let God. Yep, that's my resolution. I am sure it will take some encouraging sometimes but I am confident that the great people in my life will keep me on track. 

Speaking of my blessings....

The other night I was SO tired. Isla wouldn't fall back asleep. All I could think was "PLEEEAAASSEEE go to sleep, I AM TIRED and have to get up in a few hours." I  laid there cuddling with her, hoping for some rest soon. Before I realized it, she was asleep. Then I got so caught up in looking at her that I was laying there awake. When just moments before, I was begging for sleep. She is asleep and there I was awake and  looking at her tiny little nose, and beautiful eyelashes, perfect little baby mouth and soft chubby cheeks. I am in awe of the beauty God creates in these tiny little bodies. Sometimes I can't believe how incredibly blessed I am with these wonderful little people I was given the opportunity to help mold and watch grow. 

So this post didn't contain any yummy recipes, sorry! I just had some thoughts I wanted to get out of my non stop brain. 

Goodnight friends