Sunshine, romantic movies and plumpness

This morning I went and saw Something Borrowed with my mom. It was fun to have some mother/ daughter time. Really cute movie. I'm a sucker for a chick flick. I have to admit, though, I hate when I leave a chick flick feeling like "WHY isn't this my life?" Poor Shaun, I think I come home giving him the evil eye. The men are always so attentive and sweet in these movies. So pretty much, PERFECT. Which, of course, has us women leaving these movies with much to be desired in real life! You know how irrational we are. So this week I will be expecting roses delivered, baths ran for me, random massages, hand holding and other things that even I am unsure of lol. Perhaps I will even expect a beautifully written poem to be read to me. Good luck, Shaun.

Really , though, why aren't our lives like these romantic movies?? Why am I not a woman with a beautiful slender body and perfect hair? Married to a man with an amazing job, washboard abs, excess compassion and an equal amount of modesty? Who knows but damn those movies.

As I write this I sit here trying to filter out the sound of Shaun's snoring. AHHHH. It drives me insane. Breathe right strips? What a crock. That worked about as well as everyone not pumping gas worked to reduce gas prices. Some nights I gently nudge him. This approach usually fails TERRIBLY. I , then, begin to nudge with my elbow. Lovingly, of course. This is a 50/50. If both prior mentioned methods fail I move onto things such as what I like to call a love pat. We will just leave it at that but it typically works. I then lay my head down really fast and pretend as if I were asleep the whole time. Next step: ear plugs.

Something else that has been heavily on my mind: my weight. Not exactly just my weight but my overall fitness or lack thereof. I wish it didn't bother me so much. It does though. I am about 25-30lbs away from my healthy goal weight. Had you told me 10 years ago that I would weigh what I do now I'd have slapped you and hard. I was doing good at the gym but now with Shaun being gone 16 hour days I just haven't found a way to juggle the gym, kids, laundry, cooking, cleaning, bathing kids... you get the idea. Then everywhere I turn there are women with babies freshly popped out that look as if they were never pregnant. I'm not quite sure how this is fair. I say this as I look down at my 9 month post partum belly looking about 5 months pregnant. Yeah yeah my husband is fine with my looks so I should be.... in a perfect world. I find myself not wanting to even go out of this house because I don't feel comfortable in anything I own. I just don't feel comfortable in my own body right now. I pray that this changes. Either my body or my attitude about my body.

We had beautiful weather this weekend. BEAUTIFUL. Shaun and I took the kids to the zoo on Sunday. They really had a great time. There was a baby polar bear that was just so cuuute. I'm not sure how people eat at the zoo, it smells terrible. I am working on uploading pictures from our weekend adventures but I am just so slow about it lately.

OH how could I forget this?! For the first time, ever, in this household: a pink princess sippy cup sits in the cupboard. Silly, I know. I was so excited to buy sippy cups with the Disney princesses on them lol Ya know, maybe I will just use them, too. Buying little girly things brings me back to being a little girl. I can't wait for barbies, baby dolls and play makeup!


I am sorry I have been slacking on pictures. I will get caught up soon. I am just tired and limited on time.

Random weekend happenings:
- We made delicious lemon pepper chicken wings... twice.
- I heard my 2 boys singing and playing with my little girl, through the baby monitor, when she woke up fussing <3
- Discovered a new favorite restaurant
- Mother/daughter time with my mom
- date night with hubby
- Doing 200 jumping jacks with my 7 year old because he is going to "get me into shape" lol


Now for my random thoughts:
- Why do people say things like "I could care less" If you could care less then do so, care less. It's I COULDN'T care less.
- Why can't chocolate be weight loss food?
- My coffee addiction is ridiculous

That is all for now.

4 day weekends rock :)

I've been thinking a lot about how I may really be done having babies. It's hard to believe. It makes my heart sink a bit. Shaun is more sure than I am on this subject. I know he is concerned for my well being. I have had 3 c sections already and I had some heart issues in my 3rd trimester of my 3rd pregnancy.

I think it is, partly, because so many people my age are just starting having babies. It feels weird to be "done". Am I crazy??? I am always extremely sick for at least 5 months of pregnancy. Another c section seems crazy. Heart problems... scary! I'm not sure why I can't feel 100% sure in my heart.  Time will tell, right? I sure hope that I can eventually feel at ease with it.

The kids have been keeping me really busy! Taveon is on summer break (which I love). Damon is doing his best to make Taveon wish he were still in school. Isla is getting really good at crawling, climbing, pulling up to standing.

You never know how annoying infomercials are until you have kids who get sucked into believing them! I was just told that, by Taveon, that he needs a sleep number bed because he wakes up with "neck pain". One time, when he was 2 or 3, he had a huge fit at the front of the store. He saw space bags and was convinced that he NEEDED them. I am going to create infomercials for spankings, room cleaning technique, eating vegetables and changing diapers. Let's see how much of it he chooses to believe then :) .

Shaun's mom babysat for us so we could go to dinner last night. We went to Don Jose's. Neither of us has ever been there but it was really good! Especially my margarita. Then we went and visited with a few friends. It was really nice to get out without our little tribe of children and have some adult conversation.

Shaun is on a 4 day weekend. He usually works 5 days a week and goes to school, as well, on 4 of those days. So, to have him here for 4 days straight is so nice. We are taking the kids to the zoo and BBQing since it's a nice day again! I will pray that the sun stays out for us and especially for my pale white self.

I will make another post, with pictures, after our zoo trip. Isla just woke up crying and the boys are up there dancing and singing to her. I hear it all through the monitor. It's really pretty cute.


My random thoughts for now:

- Please ladies please... wear bras. Just do it for the good of everyone involved.

- 4 way stops: They really aren't that hard to do, people! Stop, wait your turn (which you will determine when you stop), then go.

- There's always that one cashier's line who you avoid at the grocery store.

Road trip

Thursday was the last day of school. Shaun had Friday off, due to working this weekend. So, we decided to take a road trip to Seward and take the kids to the sea life center. Our goal was to be gone by 10am. I believe we were walking out the door around 11, pretty good for us. Getting 3 kids and 2 adults prepared for a day trip is a little crazy. I will just outline the highlights of our day. Hmm, maybe I should just say moments that stand out as some are NOT highlights.

- On the way to Seward we had to stop for a bathroom break. There were these "rest stops". I use this term loosely because they did not look like somewhere I felt like I could "rest". No way, was I going in there. Shaun and Taveon went in after I told T "DO NOT TOUCH ANYTHING". Sure enough someone had pooped all over the toilet seat and FLOOR! THIS, my friends, is why I don't use "bathrooms" where there is no cellphone signal.

- Just a bit further up the road, Damon had taken his shirt of,f somehow. Pulled over, fixed that....

- Just a bit further and Isla needs a diaper change.

-We finally got there and about got blown away by the wind!

- I got schooled by Taveon that they are not "star fish" they are sea stars because they are not really a FISH.

The kids had a great time at the sea life center. We ate at a great little restaurant called Apollos, got a coffee across the street from Apollos (I can't remember the name for the life of me). I enjoyed the ride and conversations with my husband.

On another note, Shaun and I have started watching the Harry Potter series. Yeah yeah I know. Neither of us had seen any of them before this weekend. We have now watched the 1st 2 and I have to admit, much better than I thought.

Overall, great weekend. Shaun had to work but, last night, we just lounged around.

Today I was awoken by a 2 year old in a puddle of pee in his crib. Apparently, he thought it was a good idea to remove his diaper? Lord, help me with this kid.

See, Sarah Palin really CAN see it from her yard  lol

Our ride home

Jelly fish. I loved these!

Have to go for now but I am hoping to post more later.

A few random thoughts from my crazy head:

- Is anyone REALLY surprised that no "rapture" happened this weekend? Please, say no.
- I need coffee
- Some people cause happiness wherever they go. Others whenever they go. (we all know a few of these)
- I am determined to drink AT LEAST 60oz of water today
- I need coffee

Birthdays, blahs and bugs

I have been in such a funk lately. I am not sure why. I have SO much to be thankful for. A hard working husband, 3 healthy kids, a roof over my head ..... SO WHY am I in such a place of BLAH??? I feel there is a whirlwind of BLAH flying around in my head. I just can't seem to get things accomplished lately. My weight is really bothering me. The fact that my house is just never as clean as I like. I could go on and on but I don't really want to dwell on that stuff. Just needed to get it out. Maybe seeing it "out there" will help me somehow.

Yesterday was Shaun's 31st birthday :) I made him a homemade white cake with delicious homemade whipped cream cheese frosting. I am doing my best to STAY AWAY from the darn cake. It keeps getting to me through my peripheral vision. Sneaky little devil, that cake. On another, yet related a bit, note; I was looking at birthday cards and I started to wonder, why do I take all of this time picking out the perfect card and then also feel obligated to write some kind of personal note in the card? I mean, if I'm going to feel the need to write in it then why not just buy a blank card?

Today has been crazy and uneventful all at once. I haven't really sat down yet I am not sure if anything was accomplished. I still have laundry to do, floors to vacuum and counters to wipe down.

Earlier Damon found a bug and kept yelling CATERPILLAR at me. I had NO idea what he was saying. Finally he just says BUG. Shaun is in class so I couldn't do the usual "SHAUN KILL IT. KILL IT" I had to kill it, myself. Ick! As I beat the thing several times, you know to make SURE it's dead, Damon is cheering me on! "YEAH YEAH YEAH" and he was jumping up and down all giddy lol I had Taveon flush it and I overheard him telling Damon that it went to bug heaven.

OH! How could I forget to share this... Isla is fully crawling now! My BABY is mobile *sniff sniff*

I feel this post is just a bunch of rambling but that's pretty much how I have felt this week.  Thank you for reading and joining in on my insanity.

Now for my (even more) random thoughts of the day:
The booty pop and the pajama jeans: Don't do it, neither of them. Just don't.

Never trust a fart; just ask Taveon.

When the girl at the coffee shop has your drink started before you even order, when she sees your car in line... this is a sign you may have a problem. Yes, I am speaking to myself on this one.

When people say "the last thing I wanted to do was (fill in the blank)" Does this mean they still wanted to and it was just last on their list??? Shouldn't they say "I never wanted to..."

Ok that is all for now. I turned around to see Damon attempting to ride on Isla's back like a horse while Isla is chewing on darth vader's head. Oh the excitement in this house!

It's been awhile

I have not written in so long. How terrible! I guess I got caught up in life and all things crazy. I suppose I should make this a quick catch up post. I promise to be better about writing. Let's face it, I have no great excuse as to why I haven't written. My life is not some fabulous, wild, crazy (eh, that one maybe), over the top extravaganza that keeps me tied up lol.

So let's see. Isla is over 8 months old now. Actually in 11 days she will be 9 months old. She is crawling and growing bigger and more beautiful by the day. She is quickly picking up on how to give her big brother (Damon) payback. One day we are riding along in the car and he starts yelling about his waffle (he always brings one in the am) is gone. I say to him "You have to wait until we get home for another one!". Finfally, I get so flustered with his carrying on that I pull over, get out and open his door. What do I find? Isla snatched his waffle and was eating it and holding it out away from him! Lord, help me!

Damon is his crazy little self. He is so cute and outgoing yet so wild and crazy all at once. If you have ever seen any pictures of him you know the glimmer in his eye and you know he's up to SOMETHING. Damon is 2 and a half and has finally starting really talking better. Maybe I should say yelling because, mainly, that's what seems to go on lately. His latest is "you see dat?" and "how about....". I must admit, it's really cute.

Taveon is finishing up 1st grade this week. I could not be more proud of him. He will be going into the gifted program next year (proud mommy, hehe) and he is such a smart and happy kid. He is a little reserved and shy but he seems to make friends pretty darn easily. I can not believe my first baby is getting so big. I wish I could slow down time, rewind, pause, whatever! He calls me "mom" now and doesn't really want to be seen holding my hand BUT he will do, reluctantly, to make me happy. Good boy! Oh, Taveon has also started little league. He is SO cute in his uniform. I will have to post a picture.

Shaun is working FT and going to school FT. He is gone 15-16 hours a day. I miss him and I can not wait for  him to graduate next year! He is on the deans list. What an accomplishment for working, going to school and having a family!

I am busy busy busy. The life of a mother. I am blessed with business :) I have lost my pregnancy weight but still have a ways to go to my GOAL! 25 more lbs and I'm at my goal. I will do it and then I will be able to share then and now progress pics :)

Must go, have a pretty little baby crying for her mama. I will write again soon and I will include some yummy recipes again!
TTFN :)